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Sep. 1st, 2009 | 08:46 pm

 "na'aseh v'nishma – we will do and we will listen"


college is kicking my ass.

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I'm still I'm still Bridjet from the block

Aug. 12th, 2009 | 11:01 am
location: here
mood: aggravatedaggravated
music: lady sov

 we aint all squeaky clean
this is my london I call it my hometown
life aint crumpets and trumpets

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none shall pass.

Jul. 28th, 2009 | 01:05 pm
location: outside again
mood: I'm sweating...
music: BUSDRIVER - sueing sony

 I'm a dude's girl.
Oh well.


I figured out yesterday if a guy shows interest in me, I am no longer interested...
I long for the chase and I love the fact that they don't give a shit. If they show some interest and don't do anything it makes it even better..
but if theyre on it, I jump right off. 
Shit happens, theres millions of fish in the sea but I'm a picky fisher I guess.

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looks are really not decieving at all.

Jul. 27th, 2009 | 12:09 pm
location: outside
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: RJD2!

 if you look like a duck, walk like a duck, youre a duck.
if youre chill, laugh at immature jokes, and smoke cigarettes, youre a pothead.
I love anthony kiedis.
cant wait for my tattoos.
i like my new cutco job, even tho I reallly don't want to drive around and go into peoples houses and sell them knives.
I basically, take in mind the word basically, quit timmy ho's.
I'm happy about that.
I can't believe school is 3 weeks away.
I'm scared but excited....more scared to leave home.
My parents are getting better. They bought so much food haha.
I have a phone jam today and a meeting at 1230.


See ya.
Ive noticed if you let people in, youll be happy.
If you never see them again, youve enjoyed the time with them. 
Even if you don't like them and you never see them again you will be happy to know that you knew them, even just their name.
Life is fast, life is hard, and life is the most experience you will ever have in ANYTHING and no matter what if youre happy at the end of the day that is all that matters. You can meet someone who you will not even be friends but garanteed if you think about them sometime in life that means you care, even if you dont, deep down you do.
and if you really do just hate humanity like I do, theres exceptions.
Ok but really...
see ya.

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Arranged marriges are dumb.

Jul. 22nd, 2009 | 04:58 pm
location: hell hole that I call home
mood: apatheticapathetic
music: punk rocker - teddybears

Normal parents don't starve their children and set up arranged marriges.
I do what I want, when I want. 
I live MY life through MY eyes.
I love myself for me before anyone else because without yourself you cannot care for others.
I won't ever treat my children how my parents treat me. They beg me to give up my job to be with them more but I HATE taking money from my parents so I choose not to I like it this way. I like working for my own money.
The fact that my parents do have an illegal buisness (I THINK.) and so does everyone else, makes it harder for me to participate in ANYTHING.
I don't know why you would ask your daughter EVERY DAY, MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY, what she eats, when she eats it, BUY HER DIET PILLS, and MAKE HER go to the gym. Then when she eats her ONE MEAL A DAY pour water when you believe she is done.
My mom looks like a holocaust prisoner and my father eats steaks and ribs and fish and gets schwasted all the time yet I'mmmmm the one who gets shit on and Im not even pudgey in the smallest BIT!
I do feel selfish lately for taking some things for granted like food (whatever of it there is), money for college tuition but I guess I could be presented as manipulative and a bitch when I trash talk my parents sometimes.
But, an arranged marrige will NEVER happen. I cannot believe they're making me hang out with someone just so I can date them.
Which I will not because: Brian lives in Michigan. He's 21. He might still have a girlfriend. He is a swimmer and is going into biomedical engineering.
Where as I: Party. (Which I see as drug use and drinking) I smoke cigarettes. I live in Ohio. I don't want to date anyone again until AFTER college because what is the point of dating for two or so years and then I end up getting my heart broken and starting over again? I think not. Arranged marriges and or dating NEVER works out. I don't care how cool he is, we can be friends. 

But hey, if Michael Phelps tried the natural effects of meeting Mary Jane then why shouldn't everyone?


I'm not really that excited for my new job at Cutco.....
Selling knifes.
Yeah, knifes.
And thats all I sell.
Hunting, fishing, gardening, and kitchen knifes with demonstrations and everything.
I don't think it will be that cool but, its $14.25 a session so bring it on Cutco lets fuckin' cut the shit out of that cheese and bread with the extra sharp G2 cutting state of the art KNIFES! Only $125.29 after mail in rebate and you also get our custom made to form your hand and finger tips, FISH CUTTER! Never again must you struggle to clean a fish where the knife is dull....this knife actually has a body and mind of its own where it cuts, filets, and grills the fish to perfection for you while you, fatass in the kitchen eating AGAIN after the wife said not to because you never do anything anymore but drink and fish, sit in your relaxing recline chair and watch nascar.

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The little things.

Jul. 13th, 2009 | 10:36 am
location: home, again.
mood: blahblah
music: missin' you - trey songz

always matter.
A bad day can be turned around when they ask 
"would you like whipped cream on top?"
and you walk away with a smile.

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PARENTS CAN GET FUCKED.

Jul. 13th, 2009 | 09:01 am
location: my room.
mood: infuriatedinfuriated
music: Scarface - my block

 FUCK MY PARENTS.
So going to Florida in my car was the best idea and then POOF !
10 hours mind you before we plan on going they say im not allowed to go.
THOSE FUCKERS!
I fucking hate them. I spent the last 2 months of my life working 5 days a week, 25 to 30 hours a week busting my ass to go on a trip with my 4 girlfriends and this shit happens. I flipped my shit on my parents and they said I wasn't allowed to go so I had to spend money on a fucking plane ticket BY MYSELF to go to florida and what they DON'T know is whyyyyyy I want to drive so bad is because WE HAVE DRUGS ON THE CAR! OBVIOUSLY NOT ME ANYMORE BECAUSE I HAVE TO FUCKING FLY.
im so pissed off right now that when I hit the wall I think I broke my finger but I just shook it off and it hurts like fuck. 
I'm so excited to move out of the house I can't fucking wait because then they don't have any say in my life.
I know I sound like a bitch because my parents have done so much for me but honestly, I don't see my mother as a friend like most girls. I don't like my dad, I would be upset if he left again but I really don't care it was really nice without him. and my mom is a little bitch who can fuck herself because she doesn't listen to me why should I listen to her?
I hate both of them.
I'm not going to say what I would do to them because I got in trouble before on the internet when I told this girl I was gunna kill her as a joke when I was like 11. What 11 year old is a killer via AOL kids chat bullshit?
anyway.
point being.
they ruined my senior trip and my whole fucking summer they can all get fucked.

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Well..

Jul. 7th, 2009 | 05:41 pm
location: bed
mood: aggravatedaggravated
music: brain failure - fall in love 2008

 

Decided to get another livejournal. I don't know why, but I guess just because. I've been thinking a lot lately about how much people change as they grow up. Mostly just during the teenage years. How you look at people, how they look at you. How you can love unconditionally but when your older you feel tainted. Ive seen some deep fuckin' love as a teen and yet, I look at my family and I KNOW that it's not the same. I don't know. I see friends split up, and I see friends stay together. When they split, they love even more. When theyre together it's like they never left. I hope it's like that when I'm in college or I don't know what I'm going to do.
I'm excited for Florida on Monday. I'm excited for a lot of stuff. For new friends, new school, no parents, no rules.
Life is good at the moment but I can't get carried away.
Hopefully things get even better.
Somehow.

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